So today a friend of mine asked the question "Why is it sexy for girls to like girls until they stop liking dudes?” Good question right?? I thought so.. But my question tonight goes beyond men. My question is for all of those straight women who are ultimately afraid to be themselves. "Why are straight women so afraid to be themselves? Meaning if your a straight woman who is sexually attracted to other women why act as if it is something gross or its something that you would never do?

In my opinion majority of all straight women are in some way or another attracted to other women. I mean the signs are obvious... Women don't dress to impress men they dress to impress other women, to see the reactions that they get from other women, the looks, the compliments etc. Its easy for a women to say that another woman looks good or is pretty, when its harder for a man to compliment another man.

The fact that most women have insecurities and are uncomfortable with their sexuality just makes it harder for them to be themselves. I believe (and again these are just my opinions) that these same women who are always talking about how they "Strictly Dickly" and whatever else it is that they claim to be would just take the time out to just let go and accept themselves for who they are then they would be able to act upon their feelings. It is these same women who give bisexual and lesbian women a hard time about their sexuality. I think that these women look up to bisexual and lesbian women because they aren't afraid to live life for themselves and no one else. They aren't afraid to say that they love women or they love men and women for fear of what the next person might say.

Looking back i used to be ones of these females. I used to find myself fantasizing about other females and secretly checking them out all while having a boyfriend and talking to guys. When in fact it was never the guy that i wanted, it was their sister or female friend or ex-girlfriend even. But when i got the courage to look beyond what everyone else thought about me and what i liked I became a better person inside and out. I've never been happier!!!! I'd take happiness (or as my friend would say being GAY) over being insecure and scared any day.

I used to LOVE you..........

Just sitting here thinking about the times we spent together, the times we coulda spent together, and all the times we didnt....

I used to love you til the point that i was ready and willing to do whatever you wanted me to. Leave ppl, be with you and only you. I used to love you til I could love you no more. Even when i knew deep down inside you didnt feel the same way about me. I loved then and you probably think I love you still.

I know your wondering why i'm writing this and well the answer is simple. To let you know that my love or the love that i thought i felt for you is gone. I'm happy now and not you or anyone else can take that away from me. I have found someone that I love and that i am in love and who acutally feels the same way. I've found someone who touches me in ways that you have never touched me. Someone who knows what i'm worth. Which is just more than just a piece of ass. Someone who spends time with me all the time and not just when its convient.
Loving you made me feel like i could never be loved the way that i was loved. And now that i've found my special someone i knw that this isnt true. I am now aware of my self-worth. You are NOT worthy of loving not even having someone like me. Someone who is PRICELESS!!! Someone who means so much more than just sex, someone who puts her all into loving a boy like you.....

This isnt just for you but for all of the BOYS that i've dealt with throught my life. For the BOYS who thought they were men. FOR THE BOYS who never did anything for me expect bring me headache and pain. FOR THE BOYS who took me for granted, treated me like shit, and never cared.

These are the same BOYS that i'm thanking for making me so much stronger, making me realize that I DESERVE BETTER, that i'm worth so much more. The ones that let me go. The ones that will never have me again. The ones that lead me to the one that i'm with now. For SHE and SHE alone loves me just as hard as I love her.


I USED TO LOVE YOU.......